Time to Reflect

1. Sometimes I'm not as "alive" as I would like to be or probably should be. I feel like I have my own way of doing things and stick to that way. It is rare that I try new things and step out of my comfort zone to experience new things or different ways of thigns. Socially I do feel alive I like to meet new people but at the same time I look for the same people and people that aren't like me I don't give much of a chance. I feel if I were more open to new things I would be more socially and psychologically alive.
2. I feel like I have the least energy towards the end of the semester during the school year. I am so drained from everything that has been going on work, school, family, friends ect. that it just wears me down. By the time finals roll around and I need to focus the most I feel like I am just on empty. Sometimes I feel like I go and go until there is nothing left and I waste my energy on things that I shouldn't be wasting it on.
3. I think the most important thing is to take time for myself every now and then. Just stepping back and forgetting everything that is going on around me for a little bit can give me that energy boost that I need. Making sure that I don't sweat the small things either and save my energy and worries for the bigger problems I have in my life. I would do this by setting aside time for myself every now and then. Also I need to surround myself with people that care about me and can help me instead of causing me more problems and stress in my life. I think I can put myself in situations that I want to be in.

Stress

This past weekend I dealt with the stress that comes from a relationship. Every relationship takes time and effort and this weekend it was hard to give that to the relationship. I had to go home for the weekend to work and did not have much time to put towards the relationship issue. Instead of getting all worked up about it like I usually would have I decided to focus on work and told myself that everything will get worked out with time. When I do have the time to work things out it will be better than trying to juggling a bunch of things at once. So I worked and told myself this is what I have to do now and can handle that situation Sunday night when it can have my full attention. It was still on my mind but knew things would work out in the end. Work helped just to take my mind off it all, I love my job and have many friends I look forward to seeing on weekends. Having my friends around me always helps with my stress level and knowing I was making money while with my friends wasn't so bad either. In the end the relationship problem did get fixed and things are back to be being good again.

relationships

I have a very close relationship with both of my parents. They are for me no matter what and are behind me100%. I believe in all parent child relationships there is a parent that is more dominant or that stands out more. Not meaning one is more important just if I was in car accident or something of that sort I know I woud call my mom first. So obviously my more dominant parent is my mom. She would do anything for me and my sister and couldn't ask for a better mom. My problem is I would love to tell her more things that go on in my life. I know she would be a great help with struggles I face and we could grow even more closer than we already are. I just can't seem to open up like I would like to. I tend to keep things inside and just hope they will sort themselves out. I usually end up hurt worse than when the problem first stared evolving. My goal for next time I spend quality time with my mom would be to share something that is going on in my life at that current time, something that is hard for me to express usually.

Death of WSC student

I recently found out about the girl that had died due to a her struggling with an eating disorder. I think this death is extremely tragic a young girl around my age is difficult to see pass. I know people who have struggled and still do struggle with eating disorders and can't help think how sad it truly is. I believe they look in the mirror and see someone else and not who they truly are. It breaks my heart knowing that our society has put so much pressure on young people to look a certain way it kills them. I know myself I see pictures of models and wish that I had that swimsuit body but know that isn't realistic and I'm okay with being average and try to tell myself it could be worse. This is a hard sad loss and only wish there was more someone could have done before it got to this point. Hopefully in the future at Wayne State we'll be more aware and accepting of how people look and appreciate everyone for who they truly are.